Musings & personal, Sadness


I have never felt so unappreciative. He will be the death of me. The sadness within me my heart bleeds. You say you love me yet embarrass me. For everyone to see. 

Know I’m the fool with everyone laughing at me. You are not a good one. I’m done. You don’t appreciate me. I’m done. You don’t show me the attention I deserve. I’m done. You don’t want to show your love for me off to the world. I’m done. I am not loved by you and it hurts. “What is wrong with me”…i ask myself.

I am unloved and won’t put up with it any longer. 

Life, Musings & personal, Sadness, Uncategorized

Missing You.

THE SADNESS  is always there. I look around and open my eyes realizing you are not with me and I am even more alone. We should have never been apart. It’s not right. My heart is empty and truthfully I am lost without you. 

I never wanted to let you down, forgive me if I slip away, to hide my tears away from this crazy world. Asking myself how did I get  here, for my life to be so far off. So far gone. I am lost. But I will fight to have you in my arms  again. You are my everything.  

I promise I’ll come back to you one day.


Broken Down2 

YOU took everything  away from me, and for what your own selfish comfort. 

My heart is good yours is evil, you can not and you will not win. There is always more to the story then just the tears I shed. One day someone will see the real me, the truth and not the lies you tell. 

He will remember that his mommy fought for him and did not give up. My bond with him is strong. My love for him will last forever. Always and forever. As I cry and try to stay strong, i believe  one day the truth shall set me free. 

Poetry, Uncategorized

Broken Down 

     PLEASE  take a knife to my heart as I can not do it,  At this time like shattered  glass I am nothing. Broken hearted because of you I lost everything,  just a spiteful  black shadow you are now to me. The anger is there in between.  You said I was ur everything yet treated  me disrespectfully, my past is my past yet I am always attacked. My feelings  were non-existent and no one had my back.

My heart is now in your evil hands, and you have the nerve to think it is okay,  but I will not choose to die and leave this earth with my heart in your heartless hands. With my all I will fight for him back. I am his PROTECTOR. My LOVE is strong. I am STRONGER than you think and you will reap what you sow.

Musings & personal, Tv shows & Movies

Show of the Week😍

In need of an associate, big-time Manhattan corporate lawyer Harvey Specter hires the only guy who impresses him — college dropout Mike Ross. The fact that Ross isn’t actually a lawyer isn’t lost on Specter, who believes his new right-hand man is a legal prodigy with the book smarts of a Harvard law grad and the street smarts of a hustler. However, in order to keep their jobs, the charade must remain strictly between these two unconventional thinkers. Eventually, the secret Ross is hiding gets out, leading to his arrest and trouble for the firm.

Now, with 6 seasons so far I came across this show one day bored at home google searching drama shows I can get into;  something completely new for me to start watching. I had read the summary of the show and was really intrigued, so starting all the way from season one I started watching and let me jus say I could not stop watching it. This show absolutely had me stuck and even makes me want to start getting into practicing law myself. I recommend getting into this drama filled tv show. 🙂

Life, Sadness, Uncategorized


What is life really? I don’t like it right now.

The world is against me, when I have done nothing to the world. The people I love most have been taken away from me.   The people who are supposed to love me really want to see me fail and knock me down. I will still show them I will be successful, but why is it this negative. Having no one to lift you up. Having to lift up yourself. No one to talk to.

I am a delicate flower getting plucked and stomped on by life. The bitterness becoming inside of me. I can’t think. When all I want is to be around people who truly care and love me,  But sadly life isn’t giving me that.

It is true when people say the world is cruel.

Poetry, Uncategorized


Enjoy the moments worth sharing.

Enjoy the memories worth remembering.

Enjoy the positives life brings.

Just simply enjoy living.

Don’t enjoy the negatives that get you down. 

Enjoy turning those frowns upside down.

Enjoy the laughter and smiles.

Enjoy the people with good morals.

Never loose childish enthusiasm and things will come your way. 

Live joyfully and watch things unfold happily.